I know that feeling. Shouting – even at a distance – makes my mouth go dry and core trembles. I still have moments like that. But, they come now only if I'm on my own around those shouting. After more than 30 years of safety, if I'm with my created family members, I handle it much better. It still puts me on my guard. But, it doesn't nearly cripple me any longer.

I hope you'll be able to get to that point as well. I hope you'll be able to build a family for yourself who will hep you find your inner safety.