I'm glad you're not under the constant barrage of meanness any longer. I know from experience, though, that it takes time and will to stop missing the familiar you've known so long. In my case, it started with building a circle of friends who were affirming and fiercely loyal by nature. Now, I was in my 20s when I did that (breaking away from the disfuction of my kin).

Still, I think you will get there too. It's not easy and you may have been feeling so oppressed for the years you were married that you've stopped meaninful socializing. I recommend you build a new social dichotomy. Maybe start with an in-person writing group and/or a book club or kaffeeklatch. Maybe join a hiking or gym group. It's a start to building and all-you-own social circle.